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emometalhead · 4 years ago

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Abt Stephanie, she apparently went through addiction (no judgment ofc!!) and that seems to have effected her relationship with axl but also the main things are imo that she cheated on him and I do think she's a bad mother bc I heard (from a comment on a yt vid I can't find it) that she threw a party with drugs while her young kid was there too and I think axl was there as well im not sure 😔 also shes done weird photoshoots with her kids i dont like the vibes. She seems to have been Helped a lot in her career by using men from a young age and while i respect that I'm also 😐 abt it

Okay that's a lot of info, so I did some Google research before answering this lol.

Yes, definitely no judgement for going through addiction. Clearly based on like everyone I post, I also am not passing on judgement about past addictions.

I actually wasn't aware that she cheated on Axl! I was going to ask for a source, but then I found a couple articles that referenced it. Very interesting...

I wasn't able to find anything to confirm what you said about a party with drugs that her children were at. I have no comment there. Also idk how I feel about discussing drugs and her children, just because of her son's overdose and death.

I definitely agree that I don't like the vibes of the photoshoots she's done with her kids. That's really weird to me. My jaw dropped when I first saw the pics Google showed me, because it made me really uncomfortable. Celebrities definitely do some odd stuff with their kids, but posing in lingerie with your children (one of whom was underage) is not right to me. I hated reading the headlines that she "posed sexily with her sons" 😬.

Also, you didn't mention this, but I read that her son said, "I am openly gay . . . and yes, our relationship may be different because of my sexuality.” in reference to how close he is with his mom. That definitely sits wrong with me. I don't like anyone that treats someone differently because of their sexuality. Not a good look if your son is publicly calling you out in that way, Stephanie...

About her using men for her career when she was young, I definitely don't know the circumstances, but she may have been manipulated or groomed. I read that she dated a 42 year old when she was 16. I don't think she had the power in that relationship. That's creepy on the man's part, regardless of any effect it may have had on her career. That's not to deny that she may have later on tried to use famous men as leverage. I'm not accusing her, but it would be foolish to deny that it happens all the time in LA.

Thanks for the gossip, anon!! This is fun to research!

#asks #anon #inbox tea

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the--blackdahlia · 5 years ago

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Too Young to Fall in Love Chapter 17 (Dirt!Nikki x Reader)

Title: Too Young to Fall in Love 17

Summary: Nikki Sixx was a hard partying musician on the strip. He never expected to fall in love with anyone, until a girl knocked on his dressing room door looking for a ride home and took his breath away. Just like everything else Nikki did; the drugs, the money, the music; Nikki went hard with love. (Y/n) Bass never expected the bassist of Motley Crue to be the one to shake her calm and calculated life up. She had a plan. Graduate school, become an epic producer, and watch from behind the scenes as her brother’s band rose to fame. Nikki and (Y/n) were perfect for each other, too bad her brother, Tommy, didn’t think so.

Series warnings: Smut (18+ Please), drug use, language, referenced miscarriage, drug overdose, mentioned attempted suicide, out of character moments for everyone in the band, the timeline might be a little screwy but it’s fanfiction! I know nothing of music production and my medical knowledge is really screwy, so it won’t be accurate.

NIkki was wearing a tie, a fucking tie, and he was excited to watch (Y/n) march across the stage to get her diploma.

“I look like a damn monkey.” Tommy groaned, pulling on his tie. “Why can’t we wear our normal clothes?”

“We’re being supportive of (Y/n).” Mick said. Vanessa made her rounds, fixing ties and straightening jackets. She smiled at Vince as she fixed his tie.

“There.” She said. “You guys look presentable.”

“There’s a lot of snooty looking people here.” Tommy looked around. “Maybe I could set (Y/n) up with one of them.” He winked at Nikki. He loved to push his buttons.

“Do it and die lee,” Nikki growled as he shifted in his seat. He had taken a small bump before coming to this thing. He was nervous as hell but it helped to calm his nerves. Looking around he sighed. He hoped that the ceremony would start soon.

“It’s should be a few more minutes before they start,” Vanessa said as sat by Nikki making Vince pout. Vince never really did make anything official. Vanessa knew she was still a booty call.

“Hey it’s starting.” Mick told everyone.

The ceremony started, the graduates settled in their seats listening to speeches. And then they started calling out the names. Nikki saw her in line, waiting.

“(Y/n) Bass!” The dean said into the mic. And five seats in the middle of the audience erupted into screams and cheers. Like it was the Whiskey and she was Motley Crue. NIkki was the loudest.

“THAT’S MY SWEET GIRL!” he yelled giving her devil horns as she walked across the stage.

“Who are they?” one of her classmates whispered to her as she sat down.

“That’s my brother, my boyfriend, my best friend, a male model, and an alien.” (Y/n) laughed.

“Are they one of those bands that play the strip?” He asked.

“Yeah. They’re fantastic.” She smiled, settling in her seat. The ceremony finished off and the grads were waiting for their family. Before the guys and Vanessa could get to (Y/n), a man in a suit approached her.

“Uh...hi?” She asked.

“Ms. Bass correct?” the man said offering his hand.

“Yeah...who are you?” She shook his hand as she waited for an answer, afraid it was a sleezy porno produced offering her the chance to pay off her student loans and college debt.

“My name is Frankie Sharp, I'm one of the produces of Elektra," he gave her a smile.

“Oh, if you’re looking for the guys, they’re around here somewhere.” (Y/n) said, figuring that he was here to talk to the Crue.

“No, Ms. Bass,” he chuckled. “I’m here to offer you a job at Elektra as a producer of course you would have an intern starting salary and have to intern for a year, but we are very impressed with your portfolio and work ethic.”

“Wait...you want me?” She asked.

“Absolutely, we will see you at the office on Monday?” he said as he gave her his business card.

“I...yes! I’ll take it!” She said without even thinking it over. He smiled and walked away as the guys walked up. She looked at them, in shock.

“Was that one of the reps from elektra?” Nikki raised his eyebrow as he walked away.

“Uh huh.” She said, nodding.

“Are you ok sis? You look like you saw a ghost,” Tommy said as he watched Frankie walk off. “Was that one of the reps?”

“Yes now hush,” Vanessa said. “Well hun what did he want?”

“He offered me a job.” She explained. “He said they’re impressed with my portfolio I put together and my work ethic. I start on Monday.” The boys were quiet for a second before they broke out into cheers.

NIkki picked her up and spun her around giving a big yell. “That’s my girl! See you are smart. Oh I can't wait for you to represent us! You are going to be amazing!” he put her down and kissed her while dipping her.

“Hey, my turn to hug her!” Tommy said, pulling her away from Nikki and hugging her tightly. “Elektra will bow at our feet! Long live the house of Lee!”

“I’m still not going with your stage last name Tommy.” (Y/n) laughed.

Niki stood back and let Tommy have his moment with his sister. He saw how happy she was and he leaned over to Vince. “Is the thing I gave you still at the apartment?” he whispered to him.

“Which thing?” Vince asked, teasingly.

Nikki rolled his eyes, “the key dumbass!” he sighed and crossed his arms at vince.

“Oh right. The key to her chastity belt?” Vince teased. “No man, it’s safe. I put it someplace Tommy would never look.”

“Ok, good.” he smiled. “We still going to DisneyLand to celebrate right?” he looked at everyone as Tommy and Y/N joined in.

“Yes!” (Y/n) called out. “I mean...yeah, that sounds cool and shit…” She smiled at Nikki.

“We are going to the happiest place on earth!”

****

(Y/n) had a pair of pink ears on as they made their way around the park. Nikki had ran home, while (Y/n) and Vanessa got ready for their trip to the park. The first thing he had done when they got there was bought her the ears, since he thought she just looked so damn cute wearing them.

“What should we go on?” (Y/n) asked, looking towards the castle.

“NIKKI! The Teacups we need to go on the Teacups!” he bounced around.

“Okay, okay. Let’s go.” Tommy took her hand and pulled her away from Nikki, leading her to a ride. That’s how most of the day was. And the surprise Nikki had for (Y/n) was burning a hole in his pocket.

“Somebody get him distracted.” Nikki groaned.

“On it!” Vince said. Aurora was in front of her castle, waving at people when Vince approached her. Her whispered in her ear and offered her a ten. She smiled and made her way over to Tommy, starting to flirt with him.

“Princesses man.” Vince laughed. “Easy to bribe. I’d run now though.” Nikki nodded and grabbed (Y/n)’s hand, running to the castle.

“What are we doing?” (Y/n) asked with a laugh. Nikki pulled her into the castle, hidden from Tommy’s view.

“Well Tommy’s been hogging you all day and I needed to get you alone.” He held her close and kissed her deeply.

“Oh, he’s just excited.” She laughed. “But I agree. He’s hogging all my time away from you.” She kissed him gently. “So, why are we here? Am I a princess now?” She laughed.

“Yeah, you’re my princess,” he said as he placed his forehead against hers. “I have something for you.” he dug around in his pocket.

"Is it kid appropriate?" She asked, looking around.

Nikki chuckled, “If you count a key to a very nice new house not kid appropriate I’d hate to see what you think is kid appropriate.” he pulled a small box out of his pocket and opened it. There nestled gently in the middle was a shiny key. “I used some money we got from the tour and the album sales to get us a house. Would you like to move in with me?”

“You...you want me to move in with you? And you want to leave the party house?” (Y/n) asked, a little surprised, even though, when he was home he spent most of his time at the Bass house with her.

“I love you, and I know it seems fast but… I can’t picture my life without you.” Nikki whispered as he gazed into her eyes. “And besides, our house can be party central if you want it to be.” He lifted her up and swung her around. “I can’t imagine my life without you babe, what do you say?”

“Of course I’ll move in with you Nikki Sixx.” She smiled, teasing him about their first phone call together. “It’ll be great!”

Nikki hugged her and kissed her deeply. His hand cupping her face as a camera flash went off. Vanessa stood there smiling as Vince and Mick clapped. Tommy came in with a smile on his face as he adjusted his pants.

“What did I miss?” He looked around and froze when he Saw Nikki kissing his sister. “People, people! Enough with the PDA!”

“Says the asshole who just got blown by Sleeping Beauty at Disneyland.” Vince laughed.

“Well, I’ll start packing tomorrow.” (Y/n) told Nikki. Tommy raised an eyebrow in confusion. “Can I see the place when we’re done here?”

“Oh yeah sweet girl,” he smiled as he held her hand and led her to prince charming's carousel. “We can give everyone the grand tour.”

“What’s going on?” Tommy asked. “Packing? The place? Are you guys moving in together or something?” (Y/n) smiled up at Nikki. “Why didn’t you ask my permission or something first?!”

“I did back in Albuquerque,” Nikki said and laughed.

“What?” Tommy asked. “We went to Albuquerque?”

“Tommy, as your sister, you need to lay off the zombie dust.” (Y/n) laughed. “Isn’t that what you told me about the caffeine pills?”

“I.. uh… well that’s….” Tommy rubbed the back of his neck and looked at the carousel. “Oh look horses!” (Y/n) shook her head and left.

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penguinrecovery96 · 6 years ago

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Update Time *Trigger Warning*

I haven’t really done a post on here in what feels like ages! That is primarily based on the fact that I have been doing absolutely fucking shite. Both my mental and physical health have been deteriorating and just feeding into one another. If you are physically ill you are bound to feel awful mentally too. I was already struggling anyway but now things are really bad. It is different to where I was at last summer. I am not actively suicidal but “risky behaviours” are intense. The problem is that I am completely desensitised to this risk taking behaviour and it does not seem as severe as professionals are telling me so their reactions seem extreme to me.

I ended up taking an overdose at the beginning of the month. This was following an extremely stressful appointment with my care coordinator (who will be referenced throughout this post as N). I knew this wasn’t the right way to deal with how I was feeling so I disclosed this and obviously went to the hospital following this. I believe this was the subject of my last post so I will leave it here.

I told N that I would engage with HTT (otherwise known as crishit team) and I had an assessment with them. This went badly and I wrote a well thought out letter to N stating the reasons why this was the wrong service for me. She just thought I was being very BPD and overemotional. Because I was refusing everything and we just had oposing views and I was really struggling things came to ahead. N ended up saying that this was it and she was going to take me to A&E to get admitted there to a psych ward. I somehow managed to convince her that that did not need to happen and surrendered to HTT.

This is were things just plateaued.

I received no support for a week and a half. Nothing from HTT. N was ignoring my texts and anxiety took over. I completely shut down. I pushed away all of my friends and family. In came some new “coping” techniques - ligaturing and using meds to sedate myself.

As you will have learnt by my last post I was diagnosed with anaemia. This alongside acid reflux (and probably another medical diagnosis that has not been fully explored yet) made me really physically unwell and upped the anti of this relapse.

So using medications to knock me out, feeling like complete shit and a hot BPD mess of a person, bulimia knocking me for six, ligaturing and overdosing is what my time over the past few weeks has looked like. N also went off work sick and didn’t return until late last week...

HTT got involved but I still wasn’t actually receiving the care that I had been told I would in the way I would. It was very hit and miss and it wasn’t like they were actually doing anything for me.

I took a small overdose on 31st Jan which I told HTT about when I spoke to them on the friday. I only disclosed this because they knew I had been overdosing. This was not a big od at all yet they made me go to the hospital. So obviously I was pissed because my Dad was off work so I had to go because I didn’t want the police or an ambulance turning up at my door, especially because my Dad had no idea I was struggling. I also had an appt prebooked with HTT and the hospital and their base are in the same location. I went and had bloods and ECG done. I was feeling awful physically and just wanted to sleep. Mentally, I was annoyed and triggered by being at A&E. So I left. When it got to my HTT appt, I did go but it was massively interrupted by a phone call by the hospital to the team asking me to go back because of my anaemia in order to discuss treatment further with them. I was reluctant because I just thought it was very basic info like taking iron tablets and that I was just going to sit in A&E for ages. I spoke to the doctor and they also spoke to the nurse I was with and it did just seem routine. They convinced me to go back so I did, was triaged again and then eventually a different doctor called me through. He took me through to a room in majors and said “You know you have anaemia right?”, I replied “yes but its a very new diagnosis”. He said “Yep, you need a blood transfusion” with such intensity. I was extremely shocked because this was definitely not what I was expecting! I definitely didn’t want to be in hospital and I didn’t think things were that bad. I think I will do a seperate post on this in itself but this was an extremely intense night which massively triggered my mental health and I really did struggle with it all. Least I know my blood type now though, it is 0 Positive for those wondering. I am definitely not like my blood type right now!!!

I was only in overnight thank god but things didn’t improve in the slightest. I am having a bit of difficulty with dissociation and obviously everything all together and they way I am dealing with it all doesn’t help that and so I am struggling to remember things and remember days. Everything is merging into one so it is making it hard to make this post.

Next thing I remember it is Monday 4th January.

I had a 3pm appt with HTT and N. I was looking forward to getting to see N, hoping that she was okay now after her sick leave and thinking that I would have time prior to the appt to speak to her. This wasn’t the case. N arrived and we all went in. I gave N a note that basically updated her on how things had been. HTT said they wanted to review how I was doing and my thoughts on HTT’s involvement. I said that I didn’t think it was necessarily helping and that things have just gotten worse. I mentioned that I needed it to stick to a small group of people that I see like we had originally planned and if someone different has to see me to try and notify me beforehand.

Then I really do not know what happened.

All of a sudden N said “I think this is the end of the road now Hannah. I think we have gotten to that point.” I was just baffled. They were admitting me to hospital!! I was seriously, even at that point just thinking that it would be a go home and we will find you a place to go but it will be a few days to maybe a week kinda situation. Nope. I was wrong! And Naive!

Nicola said that I look like shit and that she thinks I have lost loads of weight since she saw me last. (I will do a more in depth post about this particular day and maybe a more in depth post about the actual ward I was on too).

I spent from Monday night until Thursday evening on an assessment unit. This place completely ignored my eating disorder which was fine by me cause it meant I could just easily lose weight there. It was better than the wards I have been on but still I only ever left my room late at night when the other patients were in bed, to go to the clinic or see staff/drs/etc or the three times I was allowed to leave the ward. I self harmed x3, ligatured x2, didn’t eat anything at all and I ended up absconding and taking an overdose. These don’t make it seem so great and alongside the fact that I did not receive the appropriate treatment for these things, yeah not great.

Finally, I have been out for 3 nights now. The follow up treatment has been appalling! It has left me feeling again like cutting services out of my life and going at it alone. Things are not good and I am not coping I am not going to sugar coat it but I have not received any support since leaving hospital. My care coordinator is off again (this time I think its a holiday) and no one seems to know when she is returning. But I am kinda done with services. I sat there in tears the other day speaking to the manager of CMHT and told her straight that it would be easier if I was actively suicidal because I would have just done it and taken my stockpile but I am stuck with cutting, overdosing, ligaturing and the ED stuff in order to manage it all. She did not respond to that one. Its true though. Im a coward and it would be easier to be in the place where I’d just take them all and end it.

Stupid.

This is my sad, pathetic and bland, cyclical life. Thank you if you read all of this.

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the--blackdahlia · 5 years ago

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Too Young to Fall in Love Chapter 25 (Dirt!Nikki x Reader)

Title: Too Young to Fall in Love 25

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May 10th, 1986

(Y/n) held Bret’s hand as they headed towards Tommy and Heather’s wedding. Heather had asked her to a bridesmaid, but when she found out who was the best man, she had declined. They pulled up at the venue, (Y/n) taking a deep breath.

"Hey, are you okay?" Bret asked her and kissed her hand.

“I’m okay. Just a little weary of a couple of the guests hating my guts.” She told him. “But it’s my brothers big day. I probably only have five more of these to sit through for him.” She laughed a little, relaxing when she saw him smile at her joke. He was bubbly and light where Nikki was more dark and rough. He was everything Nikki wasn’t. But god, she missed Nikki.

"How can anyone hate sick a sweet person like you?" Bret asked as he pulled her in for a kiss. She moaned as he deepened it.

“Babe, we won’t make the wedding if we keep this up.” (Y/n) laughed.

"Who says we can't be fashionably late?" He teased as he pulled her tighter. She could’ve sworn she felt someone watching them as they kissed, but she melted into Bret’s embrace anyway.

“We’ll have plenty of time for this at the hotel afterwards.” (Y/n) winked at him. “Ready?”

"Let's go," her said and led her inside.

Nikki clenched his fist. She had moved on. Of course she did. He told himself, she was gorgeous and well adjusted. He, on the other hand, was a mess. The way she kissed he new boyfriend reminded him of the way she kissed him when they were together. He got the feeling again, he needed to feel numb. He looked at the song in his pocket and threw it in the floor. Quickly going inside her find a good spot to get high.

“Dude, what the hell are you doing?” Tommy asked as he was stretched out on the couch in the grooms room a little bit later. “This is Heather’s and my big day! I don’t want you to ruin it for her!”

"Like I ruined (Y/n)," he muttered.

“It’s been months Nik.” Vince sighed. He knew Vanessa was there with her boyfriend, and it hurt like hell. But he was just drinking, not shooting up every chance he got.

“Look, I’m sorry things worked out bad for you two, but we don’t have time for this.” Tommy sighed. “Now are you gonna man up and be there with me, or do I need to ask someone else?”

“I got ya drummer.” Mick said, pushing himself up.

“I got this!” Nikki said, tripping over the table. Tommy stared down at Nikki, shaking his head.

“You were almost my brother-in-law.” He mumbled. “Maybe it was a good thing it didn’t happen.” He turned and walked out of the room. He knew those words had to sting, but he really didn’t care.

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Nikki could barely stand the whole ceremony. He was sure he looked awful in the wedding pictures, but he didn’t care. They moved right into the reception afterwards. Everyone started to dance after Heather and Tommy did. Heather tossed her bouquet, which ended up in (Y/n)’s hands. Vanessa, Athena, and Heather all cheered for her. Nikki stood off to the side, watching them. He could see the new tattoo proudly under her backless dress. Angel wings, full and fluffy. He could also see that blond devil wrapping his arm around her waist and planting a big kiss on her lips.

“Take a picture. It lasts longer.” Vanessa said to him.

"Won't make a difference," Nikki muttered as he drowned himself in Jack.

“You know she still loves you, right?” Vanessa told him. “You broke her heart though.”

"What do I do?" He asked. "What can I do?"

"Getting clean would be a start," Vanessa sighed. "But knowing you… It's a long shot." Vanessa grabbed her drinks and walked back too John who was waiting for her. (Y/n) went to the bar to get a drink. Nikki looked over at her. He wanted to say something, anything. But his mind was blank what could he say. Shaking his head he turned around and walked away.

Tommy walked over to his sister after Nikki left. (Y/n) leaned on the bar, waiting for her drink. Tommy leaned against it, watching her.

"So, Bret is a nice guy," he said to her. "He make you happy?" (Y/n) got her drink and raised it to her lips.

"Yeah…" she got her drink took a sip. "How mad were you when you heard I left Elektra?" They hadn’t talked a whole lot since everything went down, mainly communicating through Heather and Athena.

"I almost punched Tom's lights out." He sighed, "I'm still pissed at Nikki. I should have forced him to stay away from you."

"I'm sorry about everything." She whispered looking down.

"Hey," he said. "No crying on my wedding day." He said and hugged her. "Love you little sis."

"Love you t-bone." She hugged him but saw Nikki. "I wish I could ask him to dance."

"Not sure how he will take it," Tommy growled. "I don't know why I asked him to be my best man. But, he's still my best friend when he's not moping" Tommy sighed.

"He'll be ok." She smiled at Tommy. “I’ll catch up with you later.” She downed her drink before she made her way over to Nikki. "Hi…"

"Oh, hey," Nikki tried to act sober. "You look good." That wasn't a lie. She did look good to him. He couldn't tell if the drugs were making his heart race or if she was.

"Would you like to dance with me?" She asked quietly.

“You sure blondie won’t come here and deck me,” Nikki looked over at Bret and sighed. He was sitting at a table, eating a piece of cake while he waited on her. She seemed happy with him and he was trying not to ruin it.

"He'll be ok." She smiled softly at him. "Unless you don't want to…" she turned to walk away. Nikki took her hand in his and felt that small jolt of electricity he did when he first touched her,

“No… I can dance,” he led her to the dance floor stumbling a bit.

"Are you ok?" She asked as he pulled her close to him.

“Honestly… no… but… it’s nice being with you right now,” he muttered. He wasn't sure what he was saying. He was pretty sure he was hallucinating because of the drugs. She was pressed up against his chest and he could smell her hair.

"I miss you." She admitted to him. "I…" she sighed as the song ended. She wanted to tell him she still loved him, that she wanted him back, but his lack of talking made her change her mind. "I guess I better let you go silly boy." She let go of him. “Bye Nikki.”

She left him standing in the middle of the floor as she want back to Bret, “I miss you too sweet girl,” he whispered before going off again to get high.

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Nikki sighed as he frowned at the girls that came by him. Vince sat at a chair opposite him.

“What’s wrong man?” he looked up at the girl he had in his lap. He sighed as she reminded him of Vanessa. He always seemed to pick girls that reminded him of her.

“They just don’t look right to me man,” Nikki sighed.

“What kind of girl are you looking for?” Vince asked, knowing exactly who he was looking for. Because he was looking for his own Vanessa out there.

"I just… I have a type in mind." He sighed as he took a shot and snorted the blow in the table. He looked at Vince. "Man I need something more."

“Well, what about her?” He asked, pointing to a girl carrying drinks. She had short brown hair and innocent eyes. Much like a college student Nikki had fallen in love with. While she didn’t look exactly like the girl of his dreams, she was pretty close.

"Yeah, I guess," Nikki let the euphoria fill him as the drugs kicked in. He wasn't sure what he had in his system but he just needed her. He took her to his room for the night, but something wasn’t right. She didn’t have the right tattoos and it was ruining the illusion.

"Hey, you ok?"

Even her voice sounded wrong. It grated his ears. He closed his eyes and tried to imagine his (Y/n). His sweet girl, whose voice was like a song. He pounded into the random chick but nothing too it. All he could think of was the letter she left and the ring on his bass.

When he was done, he kicked the girl out. He looked at the phone in the room. He only knew the one number for her, and he wasn’t sure if she had it transferred somewhere. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was. He should’ve fought for her at the wedding. But he didn’t. And now he was alone in an empty room with his thoughts and his drugs.

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the--blackdahlia · 5 years ago

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Too Young to Fall in Love Chapter 11 (Dirt!Nikki x Reader)

Title: Too Young to Fall in Love 11

(Y/n) left her class the next morning, thinking about heading back home to take a nap when a pair of arms wrapped around her and picked her up.

“Look! You’re still a baby! I can pick you up!” Tommy teased.

“Put me down Thomas!” (Y/n) squirmed.

“Come on I want to talk to you and take you to….” he looked at his watch, “Brunch!”

“Well, I can walk to your car! People are going to think you’re kidnapping me!” (Y/n) struggled.

“Awwww, where the fun in that!” Tommy said as he put her down and pouted. Taking a deep breath he closed his eyes and got serious. “I need to talk to you, ok?”

“Are you pregnant?” (Y/n) said, smiling at him. “Okay, okay. Let’s go get something to eat. My treat?” She was used to Tommy never having any money, and when they did things, she was usually the one paying, since she had made herself get a job in high school.

Tommy helped her into his car and drove them to a local place that served brunch on the weekdays. Parking the car he helped her out and they were quickly seated when they get inside.

“So…. I haven't been the best big brother have I pipsqueak?” Tommy said as his fingers drummed on the table.

“Not really.” She admitted, twirling her spoon in her fingers like Tommy would do his sticks. “I kinda got used to it though. Like that time you told the kids from school I was a ghost that haunted the halls of our house…

Tommy began to snort, “That was….” she stopped and got serious. “That was very wrong of me and I’m sorry.”

“Forgive and forget.” She said, smiling at him. “Look Tommy, it’s okay. Siblings pick on each other, right? And like you said, I wasn’t a thought all the way through child…”

“But you are smart, and you are pretty and I was looking out for you.” Tommy grabbed the spoon and was playing with it just like she was. “I just don't want you to get treated the way I treat girls ok? I just… I know i’m not perfect but… I am not the poster boy for treating a girl right you know and… I don't want you to get hurt.”

“So, hypothetically, if I started going out with one of your bandmates, like Nikki, do you think he’d hurt me?” (Y/n) asked, leaning forward in her seat.

“Ok… one, NIkki is gaga over some chick and he seems to be into her and being a gentleman and shit… but…. he has his demons,” Tommy sighed.

“Oh, I see.” (Y/n) said. “Well, don’t worry. Vince and Mick aren’t my type and if Nikki’s taken...maybe I could set my eyes on that cutie in that brand new band that’s been playing the strip. Toxin? Venom? Oh! Poison!” She smirked when she saw Tommy’s eyes darken.

“(Y/n) please don’t… I won't be able to take my sweet.. Innocent.. SMART.. baby sister with rag tag groups that are worse than ours.”

They got their food and made small talk. Afterwards, Tommy took her for a walk, doing some window shopping. Not realizing that across the street, Mick and Vince were standing.

“She’s cheating on Nikki with Tommy?” Vince asked.

“Dumb ass, she’s his sister.” Mick groaned.

“Wait, what?” Vince looked at Mick. “I… huh?” Vince took a closer look. “Holy fucking shit!” Vince smacked Mick excitedly. “Tommy is going to flip when he finds out… does Nikki know?”

“I don’t think so.” Mick said. “Why don’t we take bets to see when he does? Whoever gets the closest wins.”

“You’re on!” Vince said shaking Micks hand.

“How long you give him?” Mick asked.

“I give them a month,” Vince shrugged. “How long do you give em?”

“I think Nikki’ll find out in a couple weeks. Tommy, it’ll take a month.” Mick told him.

“You are sooooo on,” Vince smiled. “Oh man this is going to be great to see…. Should we get popcorn?”

“And beer.” Mick laughed. “Come on. We got a gig tonight.”

“Hey, how many chicks do you think I can score with before we start the show?” he wiggled his eyebrow at Mick.

“I’m sure you’ll get all of them Vince.” Mick said, shaking his head.

“So, do you have a gig tonight?” (Y/n) asked, knowing the answer.

“OH YEAH! Oh (Y/n) you’ve got to come, and this time I won't ditch you I promise, I’ll introduce you to the guys!” Tommy smiled.

“Oh, I dunno…” (Y/n) said, a little nervous. “Won’t I cramp your style?”

“OK, look,” Tommy sighed. “You are cool, you know why? Because one, you have me for a brother. Two, you listen to awesome music. Three you’re going to school to be a music manager. Four, you play instruments that are really hard and that is cool.” Tommy took a breath. “Any guy who dates you is lucky and I hope they make you happy… or I start cutting off dicks.”

“Okay, okay. I’ll come by.” (Y/n) said. “Nessa might come too. Her, me, and Athena talked about seeing a show tonight. Might as well be yours.” She smirked at him.

“YES!” Tommy smiled. “I’m glad to see you happy though. Man I am way too sober for this. OK, so I’ll take you back to campus.” He looked around. “Anything you want? I have money!” Tommy smiled brightly.

“There’s a first time for everything.” (Y/n) smiled, heading back to campus with Tommy.

*********

The guys were backstage, getting ready for their gig. Nikki finished putting on his war paint while Vince stretched in his leather pants, Mick tuned his guitar, and Tommy drummed in the air.

“Your girlfriend here?” Mick asked Nikki without looking up.

“She said she was going to be here with her friend and sister,” Nikki shrugged. “I hope so… I really want to spend time with her man.” Nikki walked over to the counter and did his line closing his eyes. “Man, we have a meeting with the label and I just hate how they’re yanking our chain man.”

“Wanna know what would make you feel better?” Tommy asked. “If you and your girlfriend spent a little time together jumping on the bed.” Vince looked over at Mick and cringed.

“Maybe soon man,” NIkki smiled. “Just need to find the right place. Far away from you clowns.”

“I’m saying hotel.” Mick shrugged.

“Dude, what’s wrong with the house? You never had a problem with it before.” Tommy said, making Vince cringe again. “Or the backseat of your car.”

“I don't want you clowns interrupting me,” Nikki smacked Tommy. “Besides, my girl is special and deserves something better than our dingy apartment.”

“What is she a virgin or something?” Tommy asked.

“Oh, look what time it is! Time to rock!” Vince yelled out.

“Yeah man, let's start the show,” Mick said as he followed Vince out.

“I’m with the other two clowns,” Nikki grabbed his bass. “And it’s none of your business.” Tommy just shrugged and followed them out. Nikki saw (Y/n) once the set started. She was smiling up at him as he performed.

“He looks good.” Vanessa told her. (Y/n) nodded, beaming with joy. “Holy shit, Vince is hot! I’m going to have to claw my way through.” she said looking at the girls.

“Oh dear god Nessa.” (Y/n) laughed. “Just come backstage with me after the show.”

“Promise,” she hugged (Y/n) and laughed. “Thena! Come hang with us!” she yelled. Athena waved to them from the guy she was talking to. The concert went on and soon, the guys were done.

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Nikki arrived home a smile on his face and a spring in his step. He by passed the party and made his way to his room to find Tommy making out on it with a chick.

“DUDE! Out! Use your own room!” NIkki yelled.

"Oh hey man. I didn’t think you'd be home from your date yet." Tommy shrugged. "This is Christy."

“Don’t care! Get out!” Nikki growled. Mick came in with a tray of white powder.

“You ok man?” Mick said. “You look stressed, you haven’t had a bump in a while. You doing ok?”

“I… I really like this girl Mick and… she’s a virgin,” Nikki breathed.

“So? It means she’s pure man,” Mick shrugged. “That’s rare and it can mean something to you right?”

“I guess,” Nikki looked at Mick. “So what do I do? I can’t bring her here,” he motioned to the party going on outside. “And I’m sure her dorm is out… what do I do?”

"Hotel?" Mick suggested. "Maybe she won’t care where her first time is."

“Not going to have her first time be in the back of my crappy car Mick,” NIkki tossed himself back and groaned. “How the hell did I find the perfect girl at the shittiest part of my life? We haven’t even had a hit album yet! We’re still playing clubs!”

“Maybe there’s something wrong with her?” Mick shrugged. “She seems like a nice girl with her head on her shoulders. And she knows what she wants to do in life.” Mick leaned forward. “How much do you like her Nik?”

“Everytime I think about her my heart starts racing, and my palms get sweaty and I just…” Nikki sighed. “She makes me feel whole, I don’t have to work hard to impress her, she’s already impressed by me,” he sighed softly.

“Then maybe she’s the one?” Mick shrugged. “Treasure her.”

“I can try… but I feel like I’m going to screw up… or something is going to mess us up.” Nikki looked at the tray in front of him and sighed.

“Just don’t let Tommy near her.” Mick laughed, even though he knew.

Nikki looked to Mick wondering if he should take the hit that night. But something told him not to, to wait it out and to stay clean for just a bit longer.

“Want some or not?” Mick asked, showing him the tray. “Or do you want left alone for awhile?”

“Yeah,” Nikki grabbed the roll and placed his nose to it and snorted. “Holy shit! Mick… just keep the girls away from me tonight…”

“Wow, you really are serious about her.” Mick laughed. “We gotta figure out last song for the album if we get picked up.”

“Ten seconds to love,” Nikki said. “We can put it together tomorrow before our gig and send the tracklist to the label.”

“Sounds like a plan.” Mick slowly got up. “You sure you don’t want me to bring a girl in for you?”

“If you can bring me (Y/n) then yes,” Nikki sighed. “Other than that… just bring me some blow every now and then. Fucking label is getting on my nerves.”

“You and me both Nik.” Mick told him. “And hey, you could call her and I’ll go pick her up for you if you want. But I bet she’s got school or you’d still be out with her.”

“I could always just use my hand and think of her,” Nikki sighed. “Let me get another bump.”

“Take all the bumps you need man, but what if we do a cover? I mean we can look at some songs.” Mick said as Nikki snorted a second line.

“Helter Skelter,” Nikki smiled. “We can do Helter Skelter on our next album. We can drop Shout at the Devil first… it’s got a good rhythm and beat to it.”

“Helter Skelter? That could work.” Mick waved to him as he walked out of the room. Nikki looked over at his phone. He debated on calling (Y/n) and truth be told he wanted to talk to her while he rubbed one out. His phone rang then. He almost didn’t get it, but something told him to.

“Hello?” Nikki asked.

“Hey Nikki.” (Y/n) whispered. “I couldn’t sleep. Vanessa’s out like a light though.” She laughed.

“Ahh, hence the whispering,” he whispered as he closed the door to his room and locked it placing a chair to jimmy the knob just in case. “You sound very sexy by the way.”

“Do I?” (Y/n) asked. “You know, I was almost half tempted to stay with you tonight. To go somewhere else so we could be alone.”

“Yeah?” Nikki smiled as he undid his pants and lay on his bed. “What would you do to me Sweet girl?”

“I’d give you the first ever blow job I’ve ever given.” (Y/n) blushed. She didn’t know what had come over her. She wasn’t like this. Athena and Tommy would call her a prude, but something with Nikki brought out something in her.

“Now that is a treat to corrupt you that way,” Nikki chuckled. “I’m turning the angel into a devil. Anything else you would do to me sweet girl?” He knew she was nervous, he could hear it in her voice. She wasn’t sure what to say.

“I could put on a show for you. Like those girls at the clubs in the strip.” (Y/n) breathed.

“That’s a show I would love to see,” Nikki breathed. “I would love to caress that soft skin of yours babe. Just let my fingers dance along your breasts and play with your nipples.” NIkki decided to take control. He smiled at the thought of what he just said. “What do you think (Y/n)? Would you let me kiss every inch of your body?”

“Y-yes.” (Y/n) moaned. She had pulled down her pajama pants and started rubbing small circles on her clit.

“Are you playing with yourself sweet girl,” he smirked as he stroked himself. “Can you tell me what you’re doing? I can tell you my cock is rock hard just thinking about you. Thinking about how my mouth will devour your pussy. My tongue just licking and sucking on your clit as my fingers gently tease you.”

“Oh!” (Y/n) gasped softly. “That feels so good.”

“Tell me sweet girl,” he moaned. “Tell me what you’re doing to yourself.” Nikki could just imagine this innocent girl hiding in her dorm.

“I, I’m rubbing myself.” She whispered. “I feel like I’m missing...you...your…” She let out a little bit louder moan, making Nikki close his eyes.

“Fuck,” he rasped as he stroked himself. “ how many fingers you got babe, I’ll help you relax and let go.” he stroked himself faster as he could just imagine her slender fingers playing with herself.

“I’m gonna try one.” She whispered to him. A moment later, he heard a low, needy moan in his ear. “Oh god…”

“How does it feel?” he closed his eyes and threw his head back. “What do you feel (Y/n)?”

“T-tight.” She moaned. “You won’t fit in there.” She heard Nikki moan this time. “You like that I’m tight?”

“Oh yeah,” Nikki breathed. “I can’t wait till you let me feel it. And don’t worry…” he smiled, “I’ll fit.” Nikki let out another moan as he stroked himself.

“Oh!” (Y/n) gasped. “S-second one in.” She bucked her hips a little.

“I can prep you so good babe,” Nikki’s breath was becoming erratic. “I can use my tongue to lick that nice little pussy before I stick one finger in there making you wet and slick. I can curl my finger just finding your g-spot making you squirm before I add my second one.” he breathed.

“O-o-oh! Nikki...I feel…” She was panting and moaning. “N-Nikki…”

“I’m close too (Y/n) just let go, don’t hold back. Cum for me sweet girl.” he groaned as he felt his own release bubbling up.

“Y-yes!” (Y/n) threw her head back and moaned, squeezing around her fingers.

“Shit (Y/n),” NIkki grunted as ropes of cum coated his stomach. Breathing heavily he fell back with a smile. “You ok sweet girl?”

“Y-yeah.” She told him. “That’s the first time I’ve done something like that before…” She admitted to him.

“Felt good huh?” Nikki smirked. “Might have to do this a few more times,” he chuckled.

“Most definitely.” She yawned. “I’m honestly excited for the real thing. Nervous, but excited.”

“I’ll take care of you (Y/n) no rushing, just me and you and the universe at our side.” he sighed as he grabbed a dirty t-shirt to clean himself with.

“That sounds amazing.” She smiled. “I’m tired now.” She laughed a little.

“Yup that’ll do it,” Nikki laughed. “It’s a great way to fall asleep.”

“I’ll see you tomorrow night Nikki.” (Y/n) yawned. “Goodnight.”

“Night sweet girl,” Nikki yawned. “I’ll be dreaming of you.”

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